Bookseller, baker, ricotta-cheese maker. I'm a reader, a wannabe writer, have a mothballed J.D., and am little bit crazy. These are the days of my lives.
Posted in Deep Thoughts, bipolar, food, links, medicine, memory, mom, writing on Sep 6th, 2010
She doesn’t get why the girl who’s been sharing the seat gives her a glare when she gets off the bus– at least not until the girl– pretty in a red and purple vintage style wrap dress, zaftig though more so than Mad Men’s Christina Hendricks– says to the friend who’d been standing next to […]
Posted in Deep Thoughts, bipolar, meds, mom on Jul 9th, 2010
It’s funny—she’s so used, in a way, to the feelings of sadness, depression, loneliness– all the other emotions that go along with her manic depression that all of the— the bleakness —sometimes despair and siren, clichéd thoughts of that final darkness. Most days she doesn’t think of them much, at least when the meds […]
Posted in mom on May 9th, 2010
You were 33 when you had me and tried for long years to do so because I was wanted– that’s what you said in the red leather-gilt journal you gave me. I read it once all the way through, have read it a few times since then, haven’t read it much recently, and maybe it’s time.
You […]
Posted in Princess MeMeMe, bipolar, memory, mom on Aug 19th, 2009
Sort of.
My mother called yesterday evening, and with the caller ID on our new handsets (my mother-in-law’s old phone, helping me screen calls) I saw it was her. I took the call.
This is a big thing for me, caller ID. When I’m especially crazy (as opposed to my baseline functional crazy), I hate the phone. I […]
Posted in Better Half, Deep Thoughts, Princess MeMeMe, bipolar, mom on Sep 22nd, 2008
I haven’t spoken to my mother since the day before Easter. The story doesn’t need to be rehashed at this point. Suffice it to say, that in the midst of a conversation in which I was trying to convince her that two hospitalizable manic episodes in two years meant she should really take better care […]
Posted in bipolar, links, memory, mom, photos, real mental on Apr 14th, 2008
Today’s post, Try, try again is up at Real Mental. Here’s the photograph that started the rumination:
Posted in bipolar, crank, links, medicine, meds, mom, real mental on Apr 7th, 2008
“That telltale lump in the throat” is up at RealMental.
Posted in bipolar, mom, real mental on Mar 31st, 2008
This week’s post, “Sore Spot,” is up at RealMental.
Posted in Deep Thoughts, good things, links, memory, mom on Mar 20th, 2008
Today is Maundy Thursday, the day on which Jesus’ Last Supper falls. I am still struggling with my literal faith versus my belief in the metaphors, my support of the scripture if not the institutions, but one of the best parts of Easter, for me, is what happens before the Last Supper. As […]
I discontinued my Effexor Friday and started my (hopefully final) 1500 mg. level of lithium dosing. No nausea side effects, but like clockwork I’ve started feeling weepy and volatile and shaky. Yesterday it was arguing with the transportation chief, the inpatient social worker, and finally, the head of social services at the hospital […]